Saturday, December 6, 2008
{ 4:50 AM }
Hey guys,
I've decided to do a RANT-RANT-RANT post today. If you're wondering,yes it is cause my parents used the same old damn faggoty shit on me again. Today i have decided to BLAST it all out and well, you be the judge, see if you've been under "how to make my kids feel bad so that i can control them" system aka emotional blackmail.
This is my scenario, I can't work and make enough money to pay my own college. On top of that my dad's earns too much to qualify me for any form of financial aid. I ain't smart enough to get a scholarship based on my academic results. The College I've gotten into cannot give scholarships based on sporting excellence or any other forms of merit. In other words there is no way in hell I can afford my own college education. AND MY PARENTS KNOW THAT.
So, with this, they can say whatever they want and i can't talk back. I am not even allowed to have a wishlist. In fact the money i have, is not even really mine. I cant spend it on what i want cause if they don't approve. they'll use the system on me. " Ken you don't have money to waste on things you want. If you got so much money go pay for your own college fees". Ie I'm screwed.
Oh you want a Macbook? "i buy u a macbook, you pay your own college fees."
Oh you want new shoes? "go pay for your own college fees first"
Oh you want to do so&so? " if you can pay for your own college fees you can do what you want"
Ie since they've payed for my food, give me allowance, pay for my schooling, they'll keep their damn leach on me till forever. It's like a Lifetime Bank loan that eats away at you life. And it's impossible to opt out cause there's no way you could be financially independent when you're a kid.
I am so sick of this bullshit from my family, OH you're not as smart as your brother, look at him his secondary school fees were cheaper cause he had a scholarship, OH look at him, he's in LAW SCHOOL, oh he'll be as good as you in squash if he was given all the opportunity you were given, OH he's so goody-two shoes we can let him do as he wishes, OH his grades are all As so we'll reward him and praise him.
Wait wait wait, what? you won this title and made it into this team or that school? So what.. you're brother would have done the same. If we didnt support you, you'll never have made it. So it's not you're victory or your achievement, it's MY gromging and support that allowed you to obtain whatever you have.
Sigh, I am seriously so damn sick of this damn shit my parents use on me. I SEE DAMN CLEARLY CAN YOU NOT TAKE ME FOR A FOOL!. as if they already think i am...
Sorry world, i just had to let it out. who wants to get wasted with me>?
Goodnightworld.
